Tonight is going to be fun! My best friend, Sati and I are going to her work’s Christmas party. I am looking forward to the idea of dancing the night away. It’s been a while since I have gone dancing. Sati and I have talked about going, but we just never have. I have no idea what I am going to wear so that should be interesting. I can’t wait until tonight!
This weekend will be bitter-sweet. I had to say goodbye to my little princess. She is going to spend the holidays with her dad, his girlfriend and her two kids. I know she’ll have fun especially since the kids are around her age. I just hate the idea that I will not see her for a whole a week =sigh=. How I miss her already! I gave her a long hug and a huge kiss this morning when I dropped her off at my parents since they take her to school. I know I’ll be busy this weekend doing last minute shopping for the family. Sati and I are supposed to go Christmas shopping Saturday morning and perhaps into the evening. Oh man…I am going to be so busy!
That question has been bouncing around in my head for the past few days. I ask my self, “am I who I want to be right now?” perhaps the reason I have not answered it yet it’s because I am scared of the answer. I can truly say that I feel blessed and happy with the life I am building with my little one and my hubby.
I remember when I was growing up I used to say I wanted to become a scientist, archeologist or a marine biologist, well I am none of those. Through the years even though I am still interested in all of that, I became more focused on wanting to help people. I kept thinking what can I do to make a difference? Who can I be that would help me, help people? I found my answer almost three years ago. I went back to school to become a Paralegal. I have about 1.5 yrs to go or so before I accomplish this, while working FT, and taking care of my family. After this I had decided to keep on with school and eventually become an Attorney. Yes, the answer at that time was Law or so I think.
I signed up for my spring classes. I’m excited, because I do enjoy learning about law and all that stuff. I have also thought about taking some art or photography classes too! Umm, but I haven’t mentioned that to the hubby. I know he would be supportive, but we will see. I don’t want to take too much time away from my family life.
While doing all of this I have also rekindled my love with art. The princess and I paint sometimes, although we haven’t done so lately. We would get paint and let our imagination take us places. We also love to take photos. We will just go on walks and she will carry her camera and so would I and just shoot whatever catches our eyes. Now that is my passion. I also started working on building my photography portfolio and working on techniques. Let’s just say that the princess discovered that she loves being my model.
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
The answer to that question right now, right this second would be NO. I feel somewhat confused though. I would love to do something with art, creativity, imagination anything involving that.
I saw these at Martha Stewart's website and I just had to share! They are too cute.
Well, last night was quite interesting. I was up through out the night with the princess. She has been sick and kept waking up through out the night. I think it was around midnight when I felt someone come over and slip under the covers with me. Yes, it was my little one. Oh, how I miss such days when she would fall asleep in my arms. I let her stay in bed with us until she fell back asleep. Once she was asleep I carried her over to her own bed. As I tucked her back in she woke up, “mommy, is it thundering still?” I assured her that there were no storms and that she should try getting some sleep before we had to wake up in the morning. I guess is the fact that I am a mom to this wonderful little being that every time she coughs I wake up. I kept checking on her to make sure that she was okay and did not have a fever. Today she is going to the doctors’ so knowing that she will start getting better makes me feel good.
On my way to work it was so bad. There were several car wrecks due to the ice on the roads. I took my time and was extremely careful, because people just don’t know how to drive in this type of weather. I got my morning coffee and headed to work. I am feeling good today, maybe it’s because I am looking forward to Friday! My best friend and I are supposed to go to this Christmas party, and I can’t wait! It’s going to be lots of fun; they are having salsa and meringue music. It’s going to be a girl’s night out!
I was married before and have a wonderful little 4 year old daughter from that marriage. After being married for what it seemed an eternity, (4 years) we decided to go our separate ways. The princess was three when that happened. I kept on with school and concentrated on my little one. Almost a year later I met my hubby. He made me change my mind about marriage and I was given a second chance in life. I had prayed and asked God to send me someone who I could share my life with and who would love my daughter as much as I love her. I remember there were times when I would think to myself that I would never get married again, because I was scared of getting hurt. That all changed when my hubby came into our life.
Well, I have joint custody of my princess and have to share her with her dad once a week and every other weekend. I miss her, but I know that she enjoys being with her dad. So here it goes. This is my life.
