reemie's beautiful mess

That question has been bouncing around in my head for the past few days. I ask my self, “am I who I want to be right now?” perhaps the reason I have not answered it yet it’s because I am scared of the answer. I can truly say that I feel blessed and happy with the life I am building with my little one and my hubby.

I remember when I was growing up I used to say I wanted to become a scientist, archeologist or a marine biologist, well I am none of those. Through the years even though I am still interested in all of that, I became more focused on wanting to help people. I kept thinking what can I do to make a difference? Who can I be that would help me, help people? I found my answer almost three years ago. I went back to school to become a Paralegal. I have about 1.5 yrs to go or so before I accomplish this, while working FT, and taking care of my family. After this I had decided to keep on with school and eventually become an Attorney. Yes, the answer at that time was Law or so I think.


I signed up for my spring classes. I’m excited, because I do enjoy learning about law and all that stuff. I have also thought about taking some art or photography classes too! Umm, but I haven’t mentioned that to the hubby. I know he would be supportive, but we will see. I don’t want to take too much time away from my family life.

While doing all of this I have also rekindled my love with art. The princess and I paint sometimes, although we haven’t done so lately. We would get paint and let our imagination take us places. We also love to take photos. We will just go on walks and she will carry her camera and so would I and just shoot whatever catches our eyes. Now that is my passion. I also started working on building my photography portfolio and working on techniques. Let’s just say that the princess discovered that she loves being my model.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
The answer to that question right now, right this second would be NO. I feel somewhat confused though. I would love to do something with art, creativity, imagination anything involving that.